ON JULY 17th I had a major stroke on the right side, mid-brain.I lost use of my left hand and leg, and my cognitive skills were scrambled quite a bit.
So,my left hand just lays there..It won’t respond to the thoughts or instructions that my brain sends to it…. I look at it, trying to will it to move, I talk to it, urging it to move, to grasp, to make a fist.I talk to it, even though it has no way o f hearing me. And then it occurred to me–We talk to lots of things that have no ears. We talk to the television, to cars on the highway,to golf balls,to cue balls,our computer, and all sorts of inanimate objects.My conclusion is that we are, of course, talking primarily to ourselves all this time–either affirmingwhat we believe and/or hope, or venting frustration to the world’s big ear. We’re trying to be brave and be heard.
Recovering from a stroke takes all the bravery that you AND your loved ones have.Softness in your brain where things used to be sharp causes gaps in communicating and perception.I was fortunate to spend some time in a great rehab facility, the Healthsouth Rehabilitation Hospital in Reading,PA, a place with lots of caring folks who know how recovery works.(www. healthsouthreading.com.)
The upside–the benefit– of the stroke is that it provides a great opportnity to evaluate, and to understand what is truly important in your life. When a good chunk of who you are is taken away, you see what you were with new clarity. Typing one-handed is slow, and it slows the thought process in writing, but I just read back over some of the comments that you have bee kind enough to send, and i’mgoing to keep at it. Thanks.